so I’ve been gone for a while.
latest update … I’m dating someone
He honestly has that connection that i haven’t felt with anyone before
the one where i tried to force onto other guys that i use to talk to.
I can say that I’m happy, the best part is that he accepts me for me
my one frustration is dealing with people’s reaction when I tell them my horoscope.
person : what’s you’re horoscope
person : oh….
me: let me guess split personality or two face ?
but isn’t everyone two face and have split personality….
i’ve been gone for a while but all i have to say is
through all the hurdles that I’ve been through in my 22 years of living, the one thing that always fuels me to achieve things is when people tell me ” You Can’t”
It makes me want to be stronger and prove them wrong and achieve it for myself
So i saw a movie last night here in Ecuador that my uncle’s best friend took me and my brother too and I was dumb founded. Never in my life have I ever regretted losing my virginity because the non-virgins are the one that die first or then the movie left me confused as in wondering whether smoking weed is actually a good thing because the pot head in the movie was immune to anything the people tried to spray on him because of the weed he smoked.
i was going to start a new leaf and not have sex, but being deprived of being able to masturbate and not have sex has turned me into a horny beast.
This trip turned out a lot better than i expected.
I honestly think Im going to cry when I leave. My uncle has shown me a good time here, but I’m going to miss that feeling of family when I get back to NY that I grew to love here. That at a young age, I wasn’t able to value as much as I do now.
not so bad. I’ve had fun and everything but the only downfall is I’m not allowed to be gay so I’ve had to pretend to be straight this past couple of days.
And my experiences remind me that it’s those black clouds that make the blue skies even more beautiful.
This is my 2nd day here and I kind of want to cry. I’m hiding who I am here and it sucks. I speak spanish but can’t understand what they are asking me at times. My relatives keep telling me that they want to introduce me to girls and it’s irritating. I just want to go home. The only person who is keeping sane here is my brother.